| Microtrawler Teal | Chaplains Corner
 Installment Number Five Mariners Passage
    - The purpose of this column is to share my
    reflections on the life of we mariners and the Creator of the seas. We mariners have
    the opportunity to experience the Almighty up close and personal in ways no others
    can. By George Shannongjs309@magiclink.com
 Bolger, Microtrawler & Teal builder.
 (Read George's article: Adding
    on to the Sacred Space) My background and heritage like many is one of builders and craftsmen. My great
    grandfather was a builder in Montana in the late 1800s and early 1900s. I have
    his homemade toolbox and wood working tools as well as a post drill. My grandfather owned
    a knitting mill in the mid 1900s and I remember playing around the ratcheting
    machines and steam presses for the wool, the smells and sounds being etched in my brain.
    My father was a tool and die maker and had his own shop from the time I was eight years
    old and those sights and sounds are also etched within. At a young age (12) I dragged home
    an old shed on a wagon and converted it into a "shop", my first sacred space. I
    took a four cylinder Model A Ford engine completely apart and cataloged all the parts
    around the new shop and did that until I could almost do it with my eyes closed.  Through the years the sacred space has changed in its purpose and
    meaning. Each of us outfits and "decorates" a shop differently, but one thing is
    for sure, it is a reflection of who we are at any given time in our lives. It is very
    personal and revealing. Sometimes I have personal history stuff around, sometimes the
    space is extremely unorganized, maybe organized, practical or impractical, simple or
    complex all depends on mood and circumstance in life. It is a place of meditation, hiding,
    creating, learning and oftentimes fun. Through the nine months I spent building MT, I
    learned to rely on the hand of God for help and companionship. Those of us who are married
    also know our spouses reaction to the place. Why dont you just move a bed out there?
    Is it really necessary to work tonight? When will that boat be finished? You just finished
    a boat, why are you starting another one? Is it really the boats we like to build or do we
    just enjoy being in that sacred space? I am sure it is both, but not so obvious to others. Lately, I have been reflecting on those whose shoulders I stand on from my
    family tree and can see some traits that I dont like. I picked up that strong work
    ethic, perseverance and tooling up proper for the job. I have learned that in part my work
    is driven by compulsion and often thought it was just motivation or being a self-starter.
    The evidence I see is having to finish a job rather than doing it right the first time,
    buying far more material or tooling than reasonable and justifying it in a hundred ways,
    not stopping when my conscience clearly says its time and to continue will just lead
    to more mistakes and the list can go on. Some say that if you "have to" do
    something that it goes beyond normal motivation and begins to look like compulsion. I am
    not sure I know the difference just yet, but it is beginning to make some sense. The quest
    really was in finding out what was at the root of the compulsion and so far I have learned
    at least for me that it was fear and distrust of God. Essentially "running" from
    Him at quite a pace. Having discovered this in prayer there has been a lifting of the
    compulsive behavior and I really like the freedom that goes with that. I look forward to
    see how this will play out in all the rest of my life and relationships.  All of this has come very recently as I put an addition onto my shop that took
    place over this past winter.  (editors note:  You can read more about George's new shop in his article: Adding on to the Sacred Space ) |